It’s her birthday today.
So I write, to salute her & all other fallen soldiers.
For 8 years she was my friend, my sister.
Or so I thought.
8 years, minus pre-school because what did we know back then?
She was beautiful, full of life and strong willed.
We had a wonderful relationship in the beginning.
You know what they say about young love.
But as the years went by, it got bitter instead of better.
She was yearning for what she couldn’t have, I was working hard to put broken pieces together.
We fell of the grid so many times and whenever I was certain we wouldn’t pull through, she’d come back.
I understand why people can’t leave relationships that don’t work, they always think they can fix it, that things would get back to normal.
But no, once something is broken it can never go back to its original state even when it’s fixed.
It is finally over.
We tried. And we failed.
You can’t keep running after the finish line, can you?
Today is her day, so I look back & reminisce.
I remember my fallen soldier, who once stood by my side to fight.
Such losses are usually painful, sad, depressing.
But I’m smiling.
Friendships/Relationships are supposed to be easy. Fun. Relaxed.
Not a chore.
If it’s real, you don’t have to work so hard to keep it going.
It should just flow, naturally.
You don’t have to ‘fight’ for him/her.
If you’re working your ass off to keep it in motion, best believe it’s one-sided.
I’m the type of person who would ride for you as long as you ride for me.
If we riding 20 years straight, I’m gonna be right beside you.
I’m the type you’d leave, go all around the world and come back to.
Cos I’m simple like that.
& that’s just the way it’s supposed to be.
No need for acting up or acting funny.
We friends today, we friends tomorrow, we friends all the time.
What’s with being friends today and strangers the next?
I can’t even begin to comprehend that.
Anywhoo, thank God for those who’ve always stayed.
Those who’ve remained true through the storms & dark clouds.
It is a blessing to have their kind in your life.
It’s time for me to say my goodbyes.
To all who have left, especially you who this post is dedicated to,
Fare thee well.
Goodbye fallen soldiers, thanks for the inspiration for this piece & may we never meet again in this life.