I was lurking on Instagram when I saw a post he had put up talking about how much he loved her and was grateful for her. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing because I was at his place just a few days ago. He was still telling me how he wanted to make me his wife, of course without making any actual moves towards that. I really don’t know if he kept saying that because he thought I liked to hear it or because he was trying to relieve himself of the guilt as he knew very well that he wasn’t going to marry me but either way I was so done with the back and forth. After seeing that post, I made a decision there and then never to go back to him. I liked and commented on the post so he would know I had seen it then I immediately blocked him on Instagram and WhatsApp. I didn’t want any explanations, I didn’t want to hear any more stories, I had had it. It had been a long time coming. I had never left him and stuck to my decision, I always went back but in that moment, I just knew that was it for me. Soon after that, my phone started ringing; it was him. Lol I found it funny really when he kept calling and calling nonstop. What an idiot I had been, being his unofficial Mrs in private while he proclaimed someone else as his Mrs publicly. I knew I deserved better and I was determined to get that so I let the phone ring and boy did it ring! That went on for a while, coupled with sappy text messages all of which I ignored and after about a week or so, it stopped. I ended that situationship cold turkey and that was one of the best things I did for myself then because it didn’t look like it was going to end and we had no future either, so what were we really doing? I gave myself a fresh start and not too long after that, I met my Mr A…
Hello beautiful people!
Don’t we just love the beginning of a new month? It is a fresh start with endless possibilities. One thing I know about new things is that you need to be done with the old before you get them. Obviously we won’t be in this month if the last one hadn’t ended. In primary school, we only got new exercise books when we had used up our old ones. You go for a second helping of food when the one you first took gets finished and that’s how it is with everything else; the old goes out and the new comes in. We get scared of new beginnings sometimes because we don’t know what to expect but that fear limits us from discovering the great things that are on the other side of the door.
In the situation I described above, I had no idea what my next step after leaving was going to be. I just had to trust God. If you’ve read my previous posts then you know a little bit of the kind of past I had. I walked a dangerous path of self-destruction and sometimes when I look back, I see God as the only reason I got out alive. He gave me a clean slate and showed me a kind of love I’ve never felt before. The beginning of my new beginning was not easy, now that I had forcefully broken away from my norm and what felt familiar, what was I going to do? I walked out of my comfort zone and stepped into the world of the unknown, believing that God had great plans for me and something good was going to happen. Your attitude during this time is very crucial; it is important to stay positive and keep hope alive because if you walk around thinking nothing good is going to happen to you, well don’t be surprised if exactly that happens! I didn’t know what was going to happen next or who I was going to meet but I knew the ONE who did so I put my life in His hands and He never disappointed me.
Beloved, you are not too far gone. Your situation, no matter what, is not too messy for Him to clean up. Whether you feel like you’re no good because you keep messing up or making the same mistakes or you feel stuck in a never ending cycle, today is a great day to start over. I love how God is able to give us fresh starts, forgive and blot out all our mistakes, overlook our shortcomings and simply make us brand new. So very new that when our past comes knocking, we’re like
01-05-17. Today is the first day of a new month. Whatever went wrong in the previous month(s), you can make right this month. You can start a new hobby, learn something new, read a new book, look for a new job or start that exercise program. The world is yours to conquer, you can do anything you put your mind to but you’ve got to really want it. Be excited about life because you only get one! You don’t want to look back on your life with regrets, thinking of what you could or should have done, do it now! It is never too late for anything.
God loves you so much and He has given you this beautiful gift of life so that you can make the most out of it. He’s not going to do that for you so make a move now.
Happy new month!
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