“Hey! You want to go out for lunch?” he asked me. It was lunch time and I was just sitting at my desk, playing with my phone. I obviously looked bored and was kinda feeling out of place, as it was my first day and I didn’t really know anyone there yet. It was his smile that caught my attention, it was coy, almost as if there was more to the question than I could tell but I thought why not. First day at a new job and I hadn’t even exchanged pleasantries with anyone so if someone was trying to be nice to me, why not reciprocate? Everyone else had already left for lunch, he was the only one still around.
“Sure!” I said almost too enthusiastically as I gave him my brightest smile. We left the building and walked down the street to a small cafeteria, quiet and near empty.
“I’m David,” he said as he pulled out my seat for me.
“Call me Afia.” I replied. We spoke a little about ourselves and proceeded to talk about our roles at work, the company, our career goals and so much more. It was such a great conversation for our short time together and I was glad I took him up on the offer. David and I would soon become inseparable at work, with all our colleagues thinking we were dating, though we weren’t. We had a great friendship and our conversations were priceless, we could talk about anything and everything, especially the things that seemed off-limits to most people. I loved the way we could pick each other’s minds and when we had misunderstandings, we quickly resolved it with logic and not emotions. David was the perfect guy and gentleman, I could see myself settling down with someone like him in future, but definitely not him because we had become like family now as we had known each other intimately for 9 years. We told each other about all our escapades with our partners who never understood the bond we had and we always ended up single, no matter how far along our relationships went. I bet you think I’m going to tell you we ended up together but nope, far from that. David died in a car accident, on his way home from the club one night. I was supposed to go with him but I had severe cramps. That was the most devastating and heart wrenching moment of my life because he was not just a friend, he was my brother now. I couldn’t sleeps for months; whenever I closed my eyes, I saw him. When my eyes were opened, I could still see him. I felt his presence everywhere I went, sometimes I could even smell him. I talked to him all the time, I still sent him messages on WhatsApp and got mad at him when there was no reply. I was losing it but no one seemed to notice because when I was out in public, I seemed okay. I loved him so much that I could actually feel physical pain in my chest whenever I thought about him not being a part of my life anymore.
Then I met Kuma. He was an older man in his fifties, but still looked quite young and strong. Kuma was the dream. He was everything I had ever wanted in a man; not too possessive or protective but knew how to mark his territory, he spent a lot on me, I could have anything I wanted even if we had to fly out of the country for it, he was super sweet and very romantic too. Kuma helped me heal and with time, I didn’t feel as much pain as I did before when I thought of David. We got married after a year of dating and having so much fun. I was myself again, I felt happy and young at heart. He allowed me enough freedom to live how I wanted while clearly letting me know my limits. He always told me how he wouldn’t be able to live without me if I died and we always laughed about it when I said my ghost wouldn’t even let him be. Kuma started a new business which involved him leaving home very early but he always came back home on time for dinner. He was such a good man and did everything he could to make me happy…
Hello beautiful people!
So you’re probably wondering by now where this story is going or if this is the end. Truth is, in this very moment I don’t even know lol but I could spin this anyhow I wanted; either Kuma or Afia would die, or they could live a long happy life, or something weird or amazing could happen to them but right now, I choose to leave it here, open for your imagination and mind to complete it. How do you think this story would play out?
That was Afia’s side of the story so you know the narrative is going to be different if we read David’s or Kuma’s sides. I feel like this is how our lives on earth are. God is the writer of our stories but we play the lead role in our individual lives. He surely is in charge of everything and He knows the end from the beginning but the truth is He doesn’t live our lives for us. Yes He is in control of everything but He doesn’t make decisions for us. We are the ones who decide what we want to do with the life He has given us and how we want it to go; whether or not we make it worthwhile is entirely up to us. We can’t live a subpar life and blame God when things go wrong; He has already given us everything we need to have a fruitful life here but He’s not going to walk in our shoes for us. Sometimes we like to hide under the cover of religion and say we are waiting on God, instead of going ahead and doing what we know we have to. Even when Jesus Christ was here, he didn’t just sit somewhere waiting on God before he did what he was supposed to, He was here for a purpose, he knew what that was and he did exactly that. I’m not saying we shouldn’t ever seek God’s opinion but for how long will you sit and ‘wait on God’ for answers when the answers you seek are right inside you and you just need to search yourself?
What can you do differently daily that would take you a step closer to fulfilling your purpose?
Who can you help?
Is there anything about your life that you don’t like? How can you change it?
Are there any new things you would like to try? What is holding you back?
Life is happening right here and now. God has written your wonderful life’s story and you are the lead character, how are you going to act in the upcoming scenes?
The decisions and moves you make today shape your tomorrow. Make the right choices according to God’s will and enjoy the life He has given you because you only get one! Live it fully without regrets and don’t be too focused on all the voices outside, only focus on the one within. Step into each day expecting the best, stay positive and show the next person some love and kindness because we all deserve it.
Have a wonderful week and never forget how much your Father loves you.
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